It's been hard to sleep (without pain killers) after surgery. I have drain-tubes and incisions that hurt. It's so hard to get comfortable and really SLEEP. One night this week, I had a horrible nightmare. Someone had kidnapped one of my children and as you know...nobody messes with my kids! The rest of the night, I fought off evil to protect my children.
After waking up from my nightmare, I was able to realize that my the connection of my dream to my cancer. Although, I as normal human, thought I was handling my journey, I subconsciously was fearful this disease was going to take me away from my children. In my dream, I would do anything to protect my children and that remains true in this journey, I will do anything to ensure they are protected. This nightmare, helped me realize that even though life can throw me curveballs, I will continue to do ANYTHING for my for my priorities in life.
My priorities in life can be mapped out using my hand.
- My thumb
- Points up to Christ and back to me. Christ guides me and I work for Christ
- Pointer Finger
- Points to my loving husband. Dan keeps me accountable, cares for me unconditionally and has been amazing in this journey
- Middle Finger
- My children are the result of Christ and my husband. They can sometimes be pains in my side but .... my children are my gifts from God, my legacy and my true joy.
- Ring Finger
- My family that loves and supports me; my parents, family, friends & church family
- Pinky Finger
- My community that loves and supports my family and I.
My journey might be long but I will continue to stand with being strong and courageous amidst fear because Christ is my guide; Dan is my helper; Caleb, Abby & Nathan are my gifts; my family and community are given to me by Christ to help and guide me in this journey. To Him be the GLORY!
it will be over before you know it. it will seem like the blink of an eye when you look back on it. You and your will be fine, no matter what!
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